I have known my wife for about 2 years now, and been married 1.5 years. I truly love her very much. I actually recently got back from overseas after being gone a year. My anger problem was around before i deployed and blew out of proportion while i was over seas.
We were both previously married. Her X has never been an issue, and neither has mine... well sort of . In my mind, my X is a big issue of how i act towards my wife. Which is just wrong. When i was with my X, i never once cared or looked at facebook, or what happened at her work or anything. i was never jealous. And she ended up leaving me because ( as she later told me while divorce was still going).... she thought i had been cheating on her for years. And she ended up at least dating someone from her work who i had actually met many times while meeting her at work.
Needless to say, i have trust issues with women. in everything from facebook to who she is around.
I have never cheated on anyone, but regardless i am 100% in love and couldnt be happier with my wife now. truly. i just need to fix my own issues.
SO, now with my wife, she honestly gives me no reason at all to think anything of her but the best, but i unfortunately treat her like she is my X alot with my anger towards how i think she is acting, versus she is just being a good all around woman.
I have been pretty good since i have been back for a month....at controlling myself and keeping her happy. but today i lost it.
one of her friends husbands is a big POS to her friend. crappy husband and father..... so instantly i dont like the guy. walking back to our car from my daughters baseball game, my wife was just shooting the shit with him like he was anyone else.
of course nothing wrong with that. But in my mind, i couldnt see why she would keep beeing nice to that bad of dirt. either wayi got mad at her for it and we argued via text(cause daughter was in car) and i ended up getting angry and just saying mean things, just to be mean.
i absolutely let my anger get ahold of me.
i could not regret something more. to me words just rolls off and go away, but my wife remembers everything. and i dont blame her
i do try and i do love her, but i WILL fix myself and how i treat her. she is the only person i am like this too, and it is because i am soo comfortable with her i think. but it is soo wrong.
i am truly going to start counting backwards from 10 in order to help give me a chance to calm down.
i have never been soo ashamed of anything in my life.